Ahh... the Martyrdom!
November Newsletter
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Be Joyful with your "giving" time.
Oh yes, the martyrdom!
Well
I was just sitting here minding my own business and this little idea
popped in my head. I started thinking about all the things we do in
life; the ones we enjoy and the one's we don't enjoy so much. I mean
let's face it - for me writing a newsletter can be daunting some times.
And it is also a lot of fun, once I get started. I just need to get
there.
So this
morning, it is Wednesday. For me and my kids that means late start at
school - they don't have to be in at 7:15 am which means I have the
choice of not
getting up at 5:30 am to get things rolling. Except for... my daughter
wants to be at school early to spend time with her friends! At 7:30 am!
So today she took the bus. No breakfast from me. No lunch. She'll have
hot lunch :-[ Ah, yes. Here kicks in the shame, guilt and disgust. If
you know me a little, you'll have an idea of how adamant I am about good
nutrition. This did not sit right with me.
But I welcomed
the extra hour of staying under my covers all cozy and warm. Winter
time seems to be especially hard on me. It's still dark outside and it's
cold. And I am just not as driven to spring out of bed, enjoy my quiet
time and then eventually start my day. My mornings include making
breakfast and lunch for my kids, so they have something wholesome to eat
in the morning and at school. When I think of the days, weeks, months
and years that this routine has been in place. And yes, some mornings
I'll think to myself: I wish I could sleep in. Will they die if they have hot lunch once in a while?
But then I get up and go about my usual routine of getting them ready
for school. Sure, at this point they are old enough to make their own
breakfast and lunch. But I love doing it for them. Or is it the part in
me that wants to keep control of their life a little bit longer? Indeed,
part of it is even my martyrdom kicking in. That little voice in the
back of my head that reminds me of all that I do for others. BUT,
here's the kicker. I ENJOY every moment of it. I guess this is part of
my Mediterranean upbringing. It is gratifying to me and it brings me
satisfaction. Sure I'll complain some times. I get overwhelmed. And the
past few weeks have been very busy and tiring. So I welcomed the little
bit of extra rest that was thrown my way this morning. And my daughter
said: It's all good mom - lol. Erase my guilt ;-)
My point is, if the work that you do is fun, then it is ok.
Perhaps it is soothing to your soul, it triggers your motherly care. It
instills a routine in your life that keeps you feeling grounded. Then
it's allowed. It awakens life in you. It feeds you crazy bones and keeps
you smiling. Do it for yourself and by default others will benefit from
it. It is like volunteer work. While we feel good giving our time to a
good cause the people receiving our care benefit immensely. We all need
something to do that expresses who we are. Be original. Be you. Express
yourself to the max. And have fun with it. As long as it kindles that
little spark in your heart that keeps you alive and kicking. Then it is
ok.
Everything else will fall in place.
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